i'm bored. and it's too early to go to bed.

....happy valentine's day. or happy singles awareness day. ;)







and happy birthday dad! (on the 16th)!!!!!

i love american express. i recommend having an amex card for everyone.

their customer service is amazing.

i was about to purchase something using my card, so i grabbed my wallet and brought it with me into my office. i couldn't find my card. i looked through my wallet a few times, then checked my purse. no card. since i'm still in jammies, i decided to check online first to see where the last place i used it was.

i found a charge of $300 purchasing airline tickets from air china to beijing as the most recent purchase.

i was like OMG. my heart started racing and i started to freak out. someone had my card. i searched frantically on the website for a phone number, and looked for a recent paper statement. i found the number first and called it and explained what i thought might have happened. they were so nice and understanding and reasonable. they're sending me a new card and i opened a dispute and it will be taken care of quickly and efficiently.

i'm so relieved. especially since there weren't any other charges. ugh. $300 was enough!

they say that what you do on new year's eve is what you'll do for the new year. at least, i've heard or read that somewhere.

does that mean i'll be drunk and horny all year?

yeah.
90 question spice test + 42 question equipment test next friday. fill in the blank, not multiple choice. spelling counts.

i need to practice my batonnets too, and my juliennes and fine juliennes. plus the dices and brunioses.

bah. i work too.

at 22166 words now. hopefully be able to get more later, but depends on work. can't even talk in complete sentences; don't have time for that.

i miss my brother. he just called me and i instantly started crying. bah. he's so silly. he sang me a merry christmas song...to the tune of happy birthday, sort of.

silly. and i've spent so much time with him this year compared to normal years.

*dances* ...

*falls over*

*breaks hip*

i'm 25...

had an interview today. was interesting. i hope i get it. if not, oh well i guess. i'd much rather work there than at jcp.

bible study tonight was really good. lots of food for thought. jono came.

ugh, ihop in lake dallas is AWFUL. NEVER GO THERE AGAIN! i said that last time i went, but i forgot. it was soooo bad. food was good, but service. OMG THE SERVICE WAS ATROCIOUS. and i dont use that word lightly.

i'm excited about tomorrow. yay culinary school!

omg school sucks.

bah. i couldn't wait until november.... october is good enough. i've had it!

i'm ready for christmas. cuz that mean's school is over. FOREVER! actually not. just mba school. culinary school on the other hand, does not suck. and starts after christmas. just at what time i don't know.

my chair keeps making me sound like i'm farting.

ugh this class is sooooooooooooooooooooo lame. his "teaching" reminds me of high school. he gives us an outline. and repeats the answers three times. ugh! pop quizzes... and stupid presentations today. LAME.

i'm just over it.

eta: oh yeah! he gave us a pop quiz today and then walked out of the room. like half the people started cheating! opening their laptops or books, or asking the people next to them. ridiculous!

but wamu is my bank!

i don't want chase....

nothing on the wamu website about it. there was a message from the new ceo or something just on like monday or something. odd... i guess i'll see what's going to happen as it happens. i just hope it doesn't screw up any of my direct deposit or withdrawals. the routing number, y'know.

another crazy dream.

i was at the mall with some random chick and my exroomate lisa. it was around my birthday, and they both kept disappearing at random times. then there was commotion and we left the mall. the way home was horrible. the streets were dusty and there were people everywhere, looking not normal (i don't really know how to describe them).

i get home and find out there's this virus (or bacteria) going around. apparently it's really bad and highly contagious and already so many people have died.

i don't know how much time passes, but then my mom calls and tells me that stevie's dead (i thought she said aaron was too but i'll come to that later). all these people around me die and i don't get sick. friends, relatives... my dad's still alive, and so is my mom.

then it's over. the world thinks everyone is safe again, though at least half the popluation is gone.

we go about our normal lives for just a moment and then it's back again, worse than before. somehow the virus has mutated and now can kill just by touching someone. and it's too late before i realize that i've become a carrier. everything i've touched at home has the virus, everything i've ever touched more than once has it. i get a call that my mom is dead. i go to her house and i see aaron on the couch, severly bloated but his eyes are still moving.

as i look at him, i get a phone call. it's my dad. he tells me about everyone up there and that i need to get away, far away.


and then i wake up crying.

i'm sick of having weird dreams, especially where everyone or just people die.

new icon. how appropriate.

i'll let you shiver my timbers anytime baby.

O.M.G.

i am so pissed. so very very pissed. and severly disappointed. i almost cried. tears formed in my eyes but i did not let them fall. i will not give them the satisfaction of seeing me cry.

i will never eat at applebee's again. ever.

they have ruined my favorite food of all time. applebee's was the pinnacle, the epitome of the best nachos ever. applebee's was the reason my favorite food is nachos. i love them. i loved theirs. they were perfect. perfect amount of the beany-beefy mixture, topped with queso and sour cream and there were always enough stuff to do on the cheese and lettuce and jalepenos that i had just started liking and now? NOW THEY ARE GONE!

REPLACED WITH AN IMITATION OF CRAPPY CHILI'S NACHOS.

i am broken.

now there are 6 or 7 "jumbo" chips. these chips are a poor imitation. they crumble too easily and make the nachos difficult to eat. they are topped with enchilada sauce. by topped i mean waved by the can because you can barely discern the amount per nacho. then they have cheese that's barely melted (which is the only redeeming quality...just the fact that it's cheese...not the fact that it's barely melted). this is topped with pice de gallo and green onions. thanks applebee's for ruining my breath. then they are slightly drizzled with sour cream. and lastly served with salsa.

WHERE IS MY QUESO? MY MOUND OF SOUR CREAM? MY AMAZINGLY TASTY NORMAL CHIPS AND BEANY-BEEFY MIXTURE?

WHY DID YOU TAKE THEM AWAY FROM ME?

changed my layout. got tired of the ugly colors i've had for like 2 years or so.

ugh, it's hot in my house.

i am so popular today! i've been called by my mother, lauren twice, and the unt eagle alert test system guy thing.

more on my mother's call in a bit...

so, i had another weird dream. not batmanesque though. still weird. i could ice skate. and we were in competition around this butt ugly gargoyle statue thing that was in the middle of the rink. we were practicing in ballet shoes, but it didn't hurt when i would fall. ok. that's one part. the other dream part type thing was that i was trying to get out of bed to finish painting (imagine that). i remembered that i left my phone in my room and so i went to go get it. it was attached to this magnetic ethernet cable and i had a hard time pulling it off. as i was walking from one end of the house to the other, the phone started falling apart in my hands. the paint chipped off, and then it broke in half, and then the speaker part broke off too, but it was still pieced together by a few wires. i tried to make a phone call in my increasing panic, but it kept dialing incorrect numbers. like when i tried to call adam with my speed dial, it tried to call utd. stuff like that. and then it completely went dead. i freaked out and then my phone rang and freaked me out even more. once i was awake i remembered i have a landline and that i have a few numbers memorized, but i was dreaming that i'd have to email everybody and that i could get a new phone without feeling guilty.

odd.

ok, about my mother's phone call. ( it was about my brother )

on a lighter note, boston cream pie yogurt is amazing. i could eat like 6 of them but then i couldn't eat yogurt for another few months.

i want to bake something. i have no eggs.

i have to write a paper but all i want to do is go and get some eggs so i can bake something i don't need to eat.

so. i keep having odd dreams. like, batman-centric.

the other day i had a dream that i was apparently in gotham city (though it really didn't look any different than where i am now). the joker killed adam in front of me. and i woke up.

this time, last night, was a bit different. i remember bowling with my grandmother. after we were done i hung out with teri for a while. and the adam came over. then the next day in my dream, it kinda happened again. only adam's stepmom and half bro and sis came over. they were driving my car (as in it was their car). we hung out in my living room while we waited for adam to come over. he came over, and so did the joker. [this is so weird] while adam's family was leaving, the joker stabbed adam. i freaked out (obviously) and he came after me with a gun. he shot me like 5 times and apparently didn't kill me. i felt a shot graze my forehead and several hit my chest. i was all bloody and stuff as i tried to get to my car. it kept going on like this, with me trying to figure stuff out and then i woke up when adam started rubbing my foot.

it was weird. i mean, there was more stuff going on in the dream, but i can't really remember it now.

maybe i need to quit eating so much chocolate before i go to bed.

...stop shopping.

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/science/the-large-hadron-collider-end-of-the-world-or-gods-own-particle-921540.html

omg no!

so, did the math. all my bills are paid until the end of the month (except for att but i'll just add that in). which means that after sept 29th, i will officially have absolutely no money. at all. i won't even be able to make the minimum payments on my credit cards. i won't be able to get gas or groceries (unless i use my credit cards). i will still have about $200 in my savings, but i'm going to pretend that doesn't exist unless it's a true emergency (not a let's go shopping because i'm depressed i have no money emergency).

so, budget time! my original idea was no more than $20 a week in cash. but then i realized i don't even have that. i have the change that's in my purse and around the house. i have ample amounts of food. the only think i lack that i need is cat litter. and i will need cat food before the end of the month, but i also have a few cans of tuna the kitties could be forced to eat. i have a box of ramen too for when i get desperate. i have entertainment; i got spore (that i didn't have to pay for), i have the last ep for the sims 2, i have mario galaxy and the wii, i have my kitties, and i have painting. plenty of stuff to do. i have plenty of clothing and my purse situation is fine. i have two new pairs of shoes (one of which i didn't pay for, the other i could take back if necessary but it's on my credit card and that won't affect my min pmt anyway). anyway, i've digressed.

budget. DO NOT BUY ANYTHING UNTIL YOU HAVE A JOB YOU RETARD. i say that's as good a budget as any. YOU ARE ONLY ALLOWED TO USE THE CHANGE YOU HAVE IN YOUR WALLET.

the first thing i'm going to do is remove my credit cards and therefore remove some of the temptaion. i will keep my debit card in there, and possibly my american express just in case.

DO NOT GO TO TACO BUENO. YOU HAVE STUFF AT HOME.

maybe if i yell at myself enough it'll stick. GET A JOB YOU LOSER.

and maybe this is a good way to lose weight. i'll just eat everything i have in my house, and i won't eat fast food and...yeah. boring.

this is not going to be a fun month. :(

...oh, and adam you are not allowed to give me money. you can buy me dinner if you really want to but YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO GIVE ME MONEY.

bleargh.